December 10, 2009So...i know this is really old news XDBUT I finally listened to Paramore's new album umm... Yesterday? Yeah, yesterday =] courtesy of my IT teacher blasting it from speakers XD ahah ty Miss, but im really getting into it, which is good.. because all ive been listening to for like..the past...AGES is r&b which tbh gets really boring. oh and Julia nunes obvs. the girl with the Ukelele, ahaha awsomes =] ANYWAYS i had well i guess they're 'Finals' all this week and i've got another exam tommorow (Friday) and then next week AND THEN ITS XMAS HOLIDAYS WOOOOOOOOOO! =] i dont blog on here enough yeah.. Sahhry :P x
Posted on 12/10/2009 4:11 PM Comments (0)
November 4, 2009Arghhhhh maths >so i'll just go ahead right now and tell you -I AM STRESSED. not too stressed but still =/ I think most of it's because i've been sitting cross-legged for the past 40945832047529487523 decades. The other cause ofc would be because I have my Re-takes coming up >< I'm retaking a maths module to do the higher tier and hopefully get a B or over (last time I did the foundation tier- not willingly, where the highest mark you can get is a C and got 107/112 -_- in otherwords a high C which means i probably only got a few questions wrong on the paper- to be fair the first question was addition no joke.), andddd i'm retaking year 10 chemistry, it's so easy honestly,[again- what i keep telling myself, though i am acctually quite confident] mehh my chemistry exam's on the 19th- i'll start worrying about it after maths, gives me a week to revise so yeah =D so im not as worried as i will be for my actual exams mainly because if i fuck these up, they'll take my previous marks- which weren't BAD, but i just thought i could improve.. seeing as im failing most subjects><
ahaha and i'm soz if this makes no sense to you- it probably won't if you don't live in the UK or don't do GCSE's or O Levels, or that other shit that they do in private skls XD
/pointless ramble
Posted on 11/04/2009 12:00 PM Comments (1)
November 3, 2009Guess who else stole off of Vee ?Yup. Moi. Who was your last kiss?
ahaha my awsome new clothes =] LOL , i shall describe :) Grey/black leggings, white vest with a cut out butterfly netting back thing, and an over-sized worn out purpley jumper thing off the shoulder ahahaha i am a LOOSER. i literally got home, and wore my new clothes XD If you're in a competition, are you in it to win it or just for the fun? Are you a patient person? Do you have a favorite song? dont have one atm What are your plans for the weekend? Is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
Have you ever slept in the same bed as your friends?
Posted on 11/03/2009 12:35 PM Comments (0)
October 27, 2009So if anyone even remembers me.... here's a "Where-the-fuck-have-you-been" blog type ramble thing(btw, im not too bothered on punctuation and spelling, i'l correct what i have to in order to make sense- not bothered with the rest.) so if you dont want to read this whole thing, ill just say between me leaving and then coming back to buzznet i've grown up, gotten new obsessions and then come back realising i left something really fucking awsome. this is going to be one of those 'Where the fuck have you been for the past year and whatnot' urm..yeah. Fail. truth is, i kinda grew out of buzznet. im not sure Why i guess I thought i'd made friends, and that finally i was accepted, and i guess it's half true. i kept on putting off signing back into buzznet cos im lazy, but here i am.. 1) i guess i should say that by 'accepted' i dont mean 'accepted' like as if i went to an american high school and had my own little clique (Anyone seen Mean Girls?) and then suddenly became accepted by the whole year. because it's not really like that in English schools, i cant really speak for schools other than my own shithole of a school but w/e. everyone has their own little friendship groups, and friends in other forms and whatnot its all vair free. its also extremely bitchy and fucked up- but yeah its better than exclusive cliques and bitchy queen bees...But oh how i love mean girls :) best movie ever (a movie i havent watched in over like 2 years, but STILL know most words to- yeah i dont have too much free time or anything. Because atm, i float between many weird-but loveable people and i know im their friend and that they're mine, but i still don't feel accepted.... and this is my last year in school before 6th form (YESSSS!!!!!) as much as you'd love me to explain english schools and whatnot, im not bothered- but i'd be a Sophmore if i went to american school . anways- and ive realised that buzznet was awsome, and that i met amazing people + friends here =] friends that tbh are more reliable than some of the ones i have irl, so this is gonna be hard to believe because i pretty much rambled and complained my whole way through this- but i dont complain as much anymore. im okayish with my parents, in the way that ive accepted them for the way they are and have stopped comparing them to other people. -But they still annoy the living fucking shit out of me, and i'm moving out when im 18 :). another thing, im not obsessed with becoming thin anymore because ive accepted the fact that i am a complete failure when it comed to that. but im sure ill get into another one of those phases. And pretty much since before i left buzznet until now, i have an obsession with makeup =S im not vain, but makeup is awsome. ive never been able to draw on paper, but drawing on your face is completely different, its fun i like seeing myself + other people just kinda transform its awsome:) and has kinda sorta improved my confidence (as in, even without any makeup i feel okay about my face :) my body- urm yes lets not go there.) and i guess tbh im just much more a happier person, am less frustrated- andddd well no last ones a lie. im still frustrated. haha. =] well... its 2 in the morning, and im fucking bored outta my mind, so imma stop here.
anddd
Posted on 10/27/2009 6:25 PM Comments (5)
August 11, 2008Meehhhhhhh! THEIR TRYING TO FEED ME
Ahm at my aunts house and their REALLY nice to me
staying here fr like...few weeks damn this keybord -_- LOL anyway omg. theyre trying to feed e so much my aunty thinks i dont eat DAMN WOMAN CAN YOU SEE MY LEGS? I WEAR SIZE FRICKEN 10 FOR FUCK SAKE I AINT SKINNY. ahm short & fat. ohhmygod. THEY DONT HVE ANY SCALES 0___0 but yes i came on here to see how many calories id be injesting for "lunch" you wouldnt acc belive me if i told you THREE HUNDRED AND SIXTY thats like..my whole day's allowance im going off to cry now :( Omg this COMPUTER GRRR TINY KEYBOARDS >.< btw wen i get bck home, few more chapters of urm thefic i write (memory loss- forgot the name :P) well atleast ive got two weeks away from the 'rents :P xxx
Posted on 08/11/2008 5:51 AM Comments (2)
August 6, 2008HO SHIT- THATS GENA? OMG 0___0JESUS CHRIST. THATS GENA? SRSLY.
mmkay- imma stop being all 0___0 and tell you wtf is going on. Ahem -you know the girl who dances with zacky in afterlife I DINT KNOW IT WAS GENA 0___0 Wow. im slow XD xxxx
Posted on 08/06/2008 7:34 AM Comments (5)
August 2, 2008Please Erase My Dreams]] Avenged Sevenfold x [[2]]Please Erase My Dreams]] Two He surveyed his situation from where he was- inside a strange small sickly green room he couldn’t remember. He let his mind run free as his limbs definitely couldn’t- for reasons he didn’t know, and as he thought more he realised he couldn’t move at all- he started to panic. Beeping-strange crescendos alien to his ears. The man who he thought was himself stood up alarmed from where he was almost folded in half on a small white chair. He thought to himself- through his panic, maybe; he was dying not dead. Though his face wasn’t visible through the many layers of gauze covering his body- he blushed. He could see his face fully now, prominent cheek bones and a jaw line, running out of the room disappearing from Zack’s eye line. He looked away from the attractive one and focused on the others, the tallest yet most small framed had large brown eyes rimmed with a powdery black substance- eye shadow he thought to himself. They were all whispering quietly now, huddled in a circle of chairs. The only other person he could make out was a small tanned girl- Innocent faced, gleams of silver attached to her skin, her hair long and hanging down in reckless waves of black and red, over her olive green shirt. She was sitting casually on the tall man’s legs, his arms entwined around her waist, occasionally he would bite her, or kiss her- he couldn’t keep still, and she was struggling holding back her laughter. Zack’s heart seemed to ache, neither for the girl- nor the taller man. He was sure of that. It just seemed to ache, the aura of love in the room choked him and he glanced around the room once more- ignoring the chest pains trying to listen in on the conversation.
”Fucking cunt” Zack felt himself shiver, as the one he thought was himself moved out of his chair and out of the room, the others were either stilled in their chairs with mouths wide with shock- or glaring at the short man- who was confused by all. “Jonathan fucking Seward, I will kill you myself if you ever do this again. If his eyes opened- if he grunted, if anything happened that meant he was awake. Anything like that happened while doctors weren’t there we were meant to tell them, what is wrong with you? You know how on edge Brian is- it’s been fucking MONTHS! MONTHS JOHNNY SINCE WE’VE HAD OUR GUITARISTS ONE’S IN THE FUCKING ICU AND THE OTHER ONE WON’T FUNCTION.” As his voice began to raise, the muscular man stood up and looked ready to throttle the shorter man, who stood up and cracked his knuckles standing within a centimetre of the other man- making another shiver run down Zack’s spine- in a completely different way. And as if the timing was rehearsed, the attractive man walked back with people clad in white dresses or oversized coats. “Good Morning Mr Baker- we know you’re awake, now everything should come back to you in forty-eight hours if it hasn’t already- you cannot move or speak at the moment due to the gauze around your body, it will be immensely painful while my colleagues and I remove it, we are happy to say that your skin wasn’t actually effected by your suicide attempt” But Zack wasn’t paying attention to the doctor, the nurses, or any of their false accusations. And as the anaesthetic in his veins got to work, the image his eyes were focused on was the man holding Zack’s right hand with his left hand, telling him it would be alright with tears in his soft brown eyes and a bottle of whiskey in the other. Ahm rushing- havent spell checked etc And im really really sorry about the delay...yeah..sorry x So by now you should of figured out most of this shit am i right? :D Comments would be nice xxxx
Posted on 08/02/2008 4:00 PM Comments (16)
Mmmkay, so ive got yet another problem to add to the listBlood clots at 14 years of age- i've got bloodclots tbh i wasnt that surprised, i've always had medical/blood issues but, my blood being too thick? first off, it used to never be enough jesus couldn't Karma pick a more likely thing for me to get >.< Idiots. Blood test on monday- again AND I HAVE TO GO THERE GINGER :( which is by far the worst out of everything in my life. -_- xxxx
Posted on 08/02/2008 5:53 AM Comments (9)
July 29, 2008Please Erase My Dreams]] Avenged Sevenfold x1)Once you've read it over once, re- read the beginning, you'll understand it more 2) Vee not only is this dedicated to you- but i promise i'll acctually continue this 3) Guess which A7x song the title's from, and i'll give you a cookie/part in this.
Please Erase My Dreams]] One
He was soaring; flying higher than any birds in the sky- up and over anyone else. Birds are pretty; they have nice, soft feathers- he thought. He could smell toast, a bit burnt this time, it seemed that it was stuck to his hand- his whole body. So he bit down but it wouldn’t tear off, so he bit harder- it tasted like metal- he liked it, the toast seemed to turn into a liquid- he wanted more- he couldn’t get enough, his whole body shook but he couldn’t get enough of the burnt liquid. He could hear someone, no more than one person- but their music made him tired more tired than he had ever been- so he closed his eyes. **** He left the studio that day- early; they’d finished the album and thought they ought to celebrate- he thought, why not? He drove home early- excited to share the news. He saw a blue van parked in the driveway thought it was vaguely familiar- he thought not much of it, probably one of her friends; she was always on her phone these days anyway. Maybe she got a lift home from one of her friends? Maybe they were staying over for a bit? He smiled; it was a celebration after all, wasn’t it? The more the merrier-right? Wrong. He opened the door; no sign of the dog- Gena or her friend. Completely silent- so he thought. He walked up the grand staircase, sorting out the mail as he walked. Heating Bill. Electricity Bill. Water Bill. He gave up- left the mail at the top of the staircase- and stopped in his tracks. He could hear something… If a tree falls down in the forest, and no one hears it- does it still make a sound? Thieves. Murderers. Vampires He laughed at the last one- he shouldn’t let his mind wander- It was probably the dog anyway. He walked up to his bedroom door his hand inches away from the door- he paused. No the noise wasn’t his imagination- he could hear it more clearly now, tapping- no, thumping. If his life was a movie- he was sure he’d be the main character- if not him, then Brian, for what reason he wasn’t sure but he was always at Brian’s anyway. He dismissed the thought. What he knew now, though- was that he would be willing to give anything- anything at all to lie in bed that night and think nothing of the day he’d had. He opened the door and for a few blissful moments truly thought that he was blinded- that his mind was playing tricks on him- oh how he wished it were true. He felt his eyes tear up and the scene unfolded before him, he couldn’t move- he didn’t know how to blink- all he could do was watch. They didn’t even know he had arrived. Because there she was, Gena-in all her blonde haired glory. Under the mailman. And suddenly, his lips moved- releasing a small sound from his throat- similar to a whisper that seemed foreign to his own ears, but they seemed to understand it fine. He suddenly felt as if he were the actor to his own body- no longer the director, he watched himself move out of the bedroom leaving his crying fiancée. He watched his hands grasp the bottle of jack on the kitchen table, half drunk with the lid long forgotten. He saw a blur of blonde and silk almost fly down the stairs- but his mind soon blocked the object or person out. He walked out of the door, down the steps and into his front garden, the grass soft and innocent beneath his feet. He went back to watching himself; he saw the alcohol being poured slowly onto himself and the smell seemed to drift up his nostrils, soothing him even more so than he already was. He saw a small blue object being dropped onto himself; he saw flames emit from where the object dropped. He felt the warmth spread through him. Good- he thought. I was cold anyway.
Posted on 07/29/2008 5:10 PM Comments (12)
July 25, 2008OMGDUDE DUDE DUDE AMIKA'S PRESENT TO ME IS JUST SO AWSOMES XD ITS IN HER STYLE TOO OMFGGGGG I CANT BELIVE MUM HID THIS FROM ME JESUS CHRIST- FUCK ME (LOL EXORCIST QUOTE) BUT STILL ITS SO SO SO SAMAZING AND I CANT EVEN REACH HER HER DAMN FONES ENGAGED! Aleena<3
Posted on 07/25/2008 6:40 AM Comments (5)
July 23, 2008To Do List/Goals1)Stop Being an Ungreatful Little Fucking Alcoholic Whore 2) GROW about 4 inches 3) Lose about 24 lbs/ Stomach needs to stop sticking out 4) Stop Complaining (Openly) 5) Concentrate more on Bass 6) Re-Dye Hair (Yet Again) 7) Stop Loosing Friends (SEIROUSLY) 8) Get into a Band (mabey) 9) Be Nice to 'rents (Will be Hard) 10) Stop Ranting/complaining 11) Drowing Sorrows in Liquor= Bad 12) Become EVEN MORE Open Minded in Music Taste. 13) Get Year Ten Uniform :) 14) Walk. Everwhere, 15) 3 Meals a Day- No More. 16) Stop Sobbing On A7x Poster- Tis Dying. 17) Write more ya lazy bitch 18) Learn to not Hate me So Much (Sorta-Kinda) :) lots of shit to do over the next 6 weeks eehh? obvs im only gonna get round to about...five XDXD but w/e First Rule & 11th do NOT apply until after sunday XD Aleena<3
Posted on 07/23/2008 4:43 PM Comments (3)
July 18, 2008Fuck me mate, XD
was AWSOMES omg.. XD Joe we pulled- like 3 times, im sorry but one word: Slimy XD i prefer normal kisses :P
Hokay so i looked like SHIT but at Georgia's when we were gettin redy i was alright looking ..i supoose XD lols well anyways, me and joe Kissed right? AND well he was tryina pull me AND I FROZE 0____0 urrrrrrrg LOLS and you know, baisicly Molly already was drunk before we came (lucky) and yeahhs, she went to the toilet and she came back and she coudlnt do her shorts up proply cos her belly button bar thingy kept on gettin in the way, and so yeahh JORDAN DID IT FOR HER ANDIWAS LIKE PMSL XD (jordan is a girl) OH and i got really hyper and i grinded with like everyone XD no not everyone Me and jordan ALMOST kissed, ( WE GET HYPER) we're both straight though :) yeahhs so anyways, OMG LMFAO, i grinded with Jennings (Rebecca Jennigningngngngs XD, as this nerd/ whos a mormon/ who doesnt like..do anything ever) and so yeah LIZZI WENT UP AND GRINDED WITH HER AND I WAS LIKE XD LMFAO and so i go to joe, "Oi, watch this XD" and i let go of him and i go GRIND ON JENNIGS and iwas DYING LAUGHING OMG SO SO SO FUNNY XD and baisicly, yah Finola tried a fag (her first time) and i was like 0___0 "FINOLA, NOOOOO! THEY MIGHT HAVE DOPE IN THERE" and i was like going crazy and then Lizzi was like "OMG, THEYVE GOT DOPE 0___0 :D" AND I WAS LIKE -_-. yahh... :P
Me, Finola (Finny) & Georgia(George)
mmhmm and urm yeah more pics :) (these were off my fone, so they probly suck) and im sorry but i looked like SHIT my hair puffed up and eveything and well you know its me obvs because im the pic above XD but yeah ive edited this becayse well ME= SHIT Joe= Hot :)
awww he straightened his hair aswell :) but yeah UGLY ME. HATE ME uggghhhh well you cant deny how shit i look, but you KNOW i dont look that shit usually i mean, just- you know i dont look that shit..dont you?
mmkay so Jordan Was Grindin with Danielle (I JUST HAD TO TAKE A PIC OKAY? IT WAS JOKES XD)
Left to Right: Jordan- Danielle :)
:)
overall twas an amazing night i WILL get a decent pic of me and joe i promise :) Aleena<3
Posted on 07/18/2008 3:48 PM Comments (7)
July 15, 2008NO LONGER SINGLEIll elaborate once ive had a shower :) oh gawd, tis too good to be TRUE :D Aleena<3
Posted on 07/15/2008 12:58 PM Comments (1)
July 13, 2008Mum wasn't too Impressed with Jimmy Urine's Antics :PI HAVE HAD THE BEST WEEKEND (Not Ever, becasue i DO hope to top it eventually) Starting from FRIDAY :D (because im cool like that) so. Friday: Sports day, boring but fun :) but annoying cos Miss Miller was all like "Blah blah blah i like to finger Mrs Foster- your not wearing School uniform, ill send you home unless you find a school jumper to wear" AND I WAS LIKE -____- SO FUCKING WHAT i bloody left ma damn PE kit in my locker and i forogt that you have to wear normal uniform if your not doin any sports events stuffs, so i wore a t shirt, black shorts, black tights a hoodie and a scarf! ( i swaped my hoodie for my friend's jumper in the end anyway) (Everyone was wearing Hoodies over their PE kits ANYWAYS, and finola had her bloody scarf and I WAS THE ONE that got called down! *mutter mutter*)
AND THEN- I WENT TO MSI, and it was just fucking amazing!!! Mmmkay so i can only remember half of it and i cba to describe- because theres just TOO much to say :P
Saturday: Shola's Party LMFAO, okay i got kissed by some chav ( AND christy did too, he was so pissed) right so me and christy were just standing bored, and tlaking and then the dude comes up and puts his arms around us and goes (Imagine a drunkness way of talking, yeah?) Elliot: Helloo! Soo- whatss youur namee? Christy: Christy Me: Aleena him: Well MY name is Elliot Georgiou (says in like, some fake posh accent and THEN he did the gay hand thing and i was liek XDXD) and then after a while MORE of laughing and shit he was like Him: Alllright then ladies i shall go now, and if you ever need anything (and then some more stuff i cnat remember) and then he hugged us both and kissed our cheeks and then our hair XD AND I WAS LIKE almost on the GROUND laughing XDXD (ive only got pics of IAMX and Robots in disguise from Msi and there on my camera, but i dint take any of msi cos i was too busy screaming and jumpink like a lunatic) and i was gonna tell you bout TODAY but i cant be botherd now :) Bye bye Aleena<3 Sunday:
Posted on 07/13/2008 2:23 PM Comments (1)
July 9, 2008Ho Shit -_-Baaah i need to get down to 3 square meals a day I KEEP ON BINGING jesus. then from three to two and then etc.
Breakfast: Glass of Water Lunch: Green Apple + Bottle of Water (53 Cals) Came home & Had: Green Tea+ No Sugar (5 cals) Dinner: Spoon thingy- Full Of Rice + Potato & Cauliflower..thing ( lets just say like.. 250 im guessing 0___0) + Soya sauce ( i cant eat rice without it, im a Salt-a-holic) (5 cals) Binge: 2 biscuits + Black coffee+ Rivita Thing+ 6 apricots (203) Ho.Shit. Total: 516 Eating Is the ONLY Thing in my Life i could have control over- but that fucking biyatch stomach keeps on betraying me. I'm Going to End Up Looking Like This
And then Proceed to turn Boys Gay -_-
Posted on 07/09/2008 11:25 AM Comments (1)
July 2, 2008Music Thingy01. So you walk into your old high school and the first thing you think is:
11. Your parents are:
Stolen Frm Branddyyyyy :D Aleena<3
Posted on 07/02/2008 12:13 PM Comments (2)
June 30, 2008*CRIES*NOT FAIR NOT NOT TNOT FAIR. FUCK KARMA WHAT THE HELL DID I DO NOW? JESUSSSSS WELL TECHNICLY...few weeks ago my friend cant take me to A7x then she went and SOLD THE FUCKING TICKETS- but it aint her fault at all, its her MUMS gaaaaah why cant mums just DIE DIE I TELL YOU DIE. no? alrighty then LIVE. *mumble mumble* I WANTED TO BE ABLE TO SEE MY HEROS scratch that- i wanted to be able to see that no- they werent just figments of my warped fucking imagination and that YES- they are amazing i wanted to be able to hear the vibrations of Christ's bass amp in my HAIR (stubborn fucker keeps his amp louder than Gates') NOT THAT I WOULD KNOW i havent fucking seen them -_- it would have been 5 FUCKING DAYS FROM NOW and not ONLY would i have the pleasure of Orgasming at Brians Guitar BUT i wouldve been able to rock out to WITHIN TEMPTATION and n Maiden not exacty Slash & Co. but still- legonds BUT NOOOOOO karma just had to fucking stick a fork in it. A SHARP FUCKING FORK -_- see wah i mean? I HATE ME. Aleena<3
Posted on 06/30/2008 3:48 PM Comments (1)
June 28, 2008okay so it isnt exactly often that i become addicted to a song like this,Paper Bag- Fiona Apple I was staring at the sky amazing song, dynamics are brilliant, the lyrics are really powerful too, she did a cover of urm- Sallys song from Nbc the 3d version thingy :) talking about TIm Burton- Sweeny todd, it RULES on HD :0 its amazingggg! baaah i want to cover this song with naz SO MUCH :0 but im not sure... Listen to it :)
Posted on 06/28/2008 4:20 PM Comments (0)
June 26, 2008*sigh/Kicks self repeatedly*Warrning: YA DNT HAVE TO READ IF YA DNT WANT TO- THIS IS JUST SO MY BRAIN CAN SAY "HA! I TOLD YOU YOU ATE TOO MUCH YA FAT BITCH" to my stomach. you'll see wah i mean Mmmmmkay then, well ive found out my weight in lb's and ill just tell you how much because- well i dont know i just will. (as if you havent guessed my fat ness) 130 lbs.. :( my own fault tho. ..then i checked it against my height on this chart -i'm overweight more than i thought i was i mean i thought i was fat ANYWAY- when your stomach hangs out like a 40 year old builder's does then ya know whats wrong didnt HIT me that badly tho till about a few days ago (i can hide my fatness with clothes if i try hard enough- i have a habit of sucking in my stomach...mabey- all the time?) when i couldn't even fit into a fucking size 10 shirt without look like some...0__0 you dont want to know. (size 12 Uk = Size 8 Us = 38 Europe) ..although i do have a 32 shirt from H&M but its black and baggyish- REALLY tight though :0
ANYWAYS i.am.using.buzznet.as.a.record.of.what.my.calorie.intake.is. becuase OBVIOUSLY I HAVENT BEEN COUNTIN RIGHT *headesk* or mabey i'll use Lj? wait...scratch that- I cant even use fucking lj without having an aneurysm in my minute fucking brain -_- yeahh sorry- descriptive moment :P its when the writer in me kicks in ahh wait yeah so
few glasses of Water =0 cals Salady shit= 200 cals? roughly Walked home for 30 mins= -125 cals from what ive eaten already = 75 cals so far Two Bowls of Fresh Pinnaple (courtesy of Mum which is why i am so horrifiedd) = 150 cals 2 Salty crackers..mmm :) = 68 cals 1 Tofu tortilla..thing with that green stuff= ermm lemme go check lets say the tofu was around 60 + green stuff 50 + tomato stuff lets say...50 (only about 2 table spoons) + actuall torilla thingy lets just round it up to 40 = 200 :0:0:0:0 FUCK
Whole days calories: 493
SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT THATS ALMOST 500 AND ALL THAT SHIT WAS ROUNDED UP SO MABEY IT WAS LIKE- OVER 500 *headesk* right. im off to do some laps round the - oh shit its really really dark outside I IS NOT RUNNING IN THE DARK at 9 o clockage i might..run over somehtin- well step over. no wait, STOMP over something and then hurt my foot -nyeah well i cant EAT obvs, cos its now almost 9 and i cant eat after 8 cos tis bad for my digestive system- hmmm Tv and crunches... oooh yeah :) orrrrrrr... RIGHT THEN rephrase: going to go jog for an hour if i can in my room. and then if im not dying already Music channel + Crunches + skipping wth an imaginary skipping rope until i BUY a skipping rope :P NOW
do you see wy i call myself fat- you should B E C A U S E i am. :) hope that proved it too ya- i feel better letting all of this out but i dont care if you cmmnt or not or even read it. i has lost like..ONE kg though in like..WEEKS :0 (why cant it be like 100 kg?) but yeah
(easier to messure things in pounds now acc) Goals :) [x] 130 lb's [] 120 lb's [] 110 lbs [] *dreams* 100 lbs [] *dreams harder* 91 lbs
*headesk* i would KILL to be 91 so so so so so so badly :( Aleena<3
Posted on 06/26/2008 1:07 PM Comments (5)
June 22, 2008you really have no ideasee, somethings. you dont know what your reactions gonna be, the people around you -you dont know how your going to deal with it until after it happens to you. because everytings just..distant- i was making my dads bed, and i looked down on it it was like i was some giant- everythings just really really small compared to me. its...weird becuase im short. because that person really is still here. you dont know where theyll go, where they are so you really cant say, that its better for them now. what i do know, is that i cant see him crying.. i cant deal with it. i cant its just strange. i just phoned my brother, and he came comferted him..a bit while- i watched the cat in the garden, we match you know? im wearing black, cat is black...yeah but i cant deal- i dont do hugs. i dont do reassurance. beacuse i dont know what happens now, after this. tommorow the next day and the next. and the months to follow either i dont know anything. it doesnt mean im not a loving person because i think i am. i think just not to people who are related to me unless theyre huzair, or the cat. not sure why im not caling the cat by its name you know? in the garden i had a thought- the reason why the cat doesnt like stuff, like he doesnt like me picking him up is that, mabey he was a person? before this. before he became a cat. mabey thats were he's going, mabey you have to be a certain rank to be a cat i wonder what hed look like as a cat, you know- like reincarnation? i told you this before, i really dont know anything. oh you know. apart from the fact my uncle's dead, i still dont know how i find time for sarcasm. Aleena
Posted on 06/22/2008 3:47 AM Comments (7)
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